You can't go back

I've been thinking a lot lately. (I always do. Sometimes it gets to a point where it gets a little too extreme) I just ask myself how I'm gonna survive outside if I'm so lazy, or think about if I'm ever falling in love again. Most times, I just think about all the things I never did and all the things I shouldn't have done. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only 1 who wants to go back in time and change the story, but the thing is, we can't.

Going through the memories at the bottom of my head, I realize that I'm not very good at being a friend. I would replace human company with a computer and keep all my problems to myself. (I still do) Other times, I get back at them for the silliest insecurity that I have. I forgot that they got my back and that I won't be seeing them for a whole year ahead of me. And honestly, I would give up almost anything to get the chances that I didn't take back then. But then that would be like hell neverrr.

So if you have no idea what I was talking about, it's okay. I wouldn't if I were you. But just remember, take every chance and do all the shit you want (except drugs) because you never know when those times can be taken away from you.